Yup. The sordid evidence of my biggest hobby.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Struck a Nerve
I kind of had a revelation as to why I blog, or at least why I have been.
When some kind of stress-inducing event occurs, my first instinct is to tell everyone. This made my childhood a bit easier because I told my parents everything. And in high school, I had a livejournal and wrote a lot of random shit. Kind of wish I had a copy of it, because random shit is sometimes fun to look back on, in a twisted way.
Anyhoo. Now, when some things happen within the fraternity, they stay within the fraternity. That's how it is. But when things both happen within the fraternity, and stress me out, as is wont to occur in some circumstances, my outlet is gone. I can't talk to anyone outside the situation. And that means that the stress and/or anxiety sits there with no outlet. I'm a little frustrated about this. And of course, I can't say anything about it. So it goes.
To cap it off, this weekend I also ran a very intense (and quite good) session. So, thinking both about where I'm going with it, as well as how to consider avoiding some mistakes I made, a lot is already in my head. Not to mention, I'm still doing schoolwork. Well, yay.
In other news, I'm addicted to The Movies. As I start to make my own movies, I can watch my free time evaporate. But it's cool. The whole house is under its spell, and some very funny and bizarre movies are floating around online due to my brothers (Joel, I'm looking at you...)
When some kind of stress-inducing event occurs, my first instinct is to tell everyone. This made my childhood a bit easier because I told my parents everything. And in high school, I had a livejournal and wrote a lot of random shit. Kind of wish I had a copy of it, because random shit is sometimes fun to look back on, in a twisted way.
Anyhoo. Now, when some things happen within the fraternity, they stay within the fraternity. That's how it is. But when things both happen within the fraternity, and stress me out, as is wont to occur in some circumstances, my outlet is gone. I can't talk to anyone outside the situation. And that means that the stress and/or anxiety sits there with no outlet. I'm a little frustrated about this. And of course, I can't say anything about it. So it goes.
To cap it off, this weekend I also ran a very intense (and quite good) session. So, thinking both about where I'm going with it, as well as how to consider avoiding some mistakes I made, a lot is already in my head. Not to mention, I'm still doing schoolwork. Well, yay.
In other news, I'm addicted to The Movies. As I start to make my own movies, I can watch my free time evaporate. But it's cool. The whole house is under its spell, and some very funny and bizarre movies are floating around online due to my brothers (Joel, I'm looking at you...)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Me with free time? No....
So, today is the first Valentine's Day ever where I haven't been single.
In many ways, it's exactly the same as every other Valentine's Day.
But somehow, it's better. Hard to say. All the random lovey-dovey crap that's everywhere made me smile instead of cringe. It's just a change of attitude.
Ah well. I've been running my new campaign, and at two sessions in, it's going really well. I have lots of ideas, and different ways to make everything split off in multiple directions. Already, session 2 was a prime example of 'woah, I didn't expect you to do that'. Although there was a bit of rules hiccup, we got it settled, and we'll be ready to go again in two weeks (my brother is here this weekend, so I'm taking a session off from GMing to show him around CMU). I've started to write up session 3, and I've realized that in only two sessions, I'm already seeing the complexity level of the plot I want to foster increase. With what I have planned next, hopefully things will get less one-sided in terms of combat and player participation. I've also done some of the bookkeeping I want, so keeping track of ammo and damage is working out. I really want to figure out what the rule is regarding damaging armor, but with the blunt trauma rules, and other things, everything seems to be pretty balanced.
Moral of the story: You can't purchase skills with limitations.
In many ways, it's exactly the same as every other Valentine's Day.
But somehow, it's better. Hard to say. All the random lovey-dovey crap that's everywhere made me smile instead of cringe. It's just a change of attitude.
Ah well. I've been running my new campaign, and at two sessions in, it's going really well. I have lots of ideas, and different ways to make everything split off in multiple directions. Already, session 2 was a prime example of 'woah, I didn't expect you to do that'. Although there was a bit of rules hiccup, we got it settled, and we'll be ready to go again in two weeks (my brother is here this weekend, so I'm taking a session off from GMing to show him around CMU). I've started to write up session 3, and I've realized that in only two sessions, I'm already seeing the complexity level of the plot I want to foster increase. With what I have planned next, hopefully things will get less one-sided in terms of combat and player participation. I've also done some of the bookkeeping I want, so keeping track of ammo and damage is working out. I really want to figure out what the rule is regarding damaging armor, but with the blunt trauma rules, and other things, everything seems to be pretty balanced.
Moral of the story: You can't purchase skills with limitations.
Friday, February 08, 2008
And finally, weekend
It felt like this week took forever. But now, it's Friday, which means Hillel tonight, chilling and chillaxing, then gaming tomorrow.
My new RPG friend is www.printfreegraphpaper.com. From there, you can print hex sheets! So, I'm going to print a bunch of hex sheets for tomorrow. It should be awesome. Also, tomorrow to me signifies the actual start of this campaign. I'm finally seeing places where things can go in a lot of different directions. I'm actually excited for the possibility of diverging away from my original plans. It could be really good.
This semester has started out being a lot of work. In the next two weeks I really have to push and get ahead of the game, so I can spend next weekend (16th and 17th) with my brother, and not have to worry about any work hanging over my head.
My new RPG friend is www.printfreegraphpaper.com. From there, you can print hex sheets! So, I'm going to print a bunch of hex sheets for tomorrow. It should be awesome. Also, tomorrow to me signifies the actual start of this campaign. I'm finally seeing places where things can go in a lot of different directions. I'm actually excited for the possibility of diverging away from my original plans. It could be really good.
This semester has started out being a lot of work. In the next two weeks I really have to push and get ahead of the game, so I can spend next weekend (16th and 17th) with my brother, and not have to worry about any work hanging over my head.
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